Death sucks
Yesterday evening as I was minding my own business surfing the internet, my mom came in my room, crying and barely catching her breath. My uncle, my mom's sister husband, had died aged 59.
He felt sick and lost consciousness briefly before passing away. Very suddenly and out of nowhere.
And it sucks. I feel awful as he was quite possibly the most gentle, loving, caring person I have had the pleasure of meeting. I liked him very much as he was very easy-going and always had a positive vibe around him.
My aunt and uncle live in Macedonia, so naturally, my mother rushed today back in Macedonia in order to be there for the funeral. I couldn't get myself to travel because I do not want to attend funerals that much. I don't like the sorrow and grief. Yes, it may seem as selfish and cowardice - but I prefer to remember the people for all the good they brought to us.
I will miss him very much. He is the only guy that I have heard saying that he loves his wife (my aunt) very much, even after 30 years together. Isn't that sad? If anything, this brought me the realisation that we do not express our love and affection to the people that matter the most to us, because deep down, for one reason or another, we feel that it is a given fact. It is not.
You can never know when you might be seeing someone for the very last time in your life. My mother's crying will haunt me for quite some time, I can tell you that. And she will never admit it - but she is crying because she did not get to see him for almost a whole year due to the whole Covid situation. In her words, my uncle Dragan was the best husband in the whole wide world. And I believe her. I believe that every girl can only dream of a loyal, loving and caring husband as my late uncle Dragan.
This one is for you, uncle. May you find peace in the heavens above. You will never be forgotten. I will always remember you - and if I ever have kids in my life, be it boys or girls, I will always try to teach them the virtues that you so carelessly brought with you - honesty, integrity, selflessness along with that beautiful, loving nature of yours. And everytime I had trouble in my life - you were there to help me along the way. You always had my back. It is only fair that I never forget that - and make sure that your kind, loving personality is never, ever forgotten.
My heart goes out to my relatives. He is survived by my aunt and my cousins. I know that I will be giving them a humongous hug when I see them.
Rest in peace uncle. You will never be forgotten.
